I am so, so tired at the moment. I feel so bad about it. I just feel bad that I seem to be unable to do all the things I am supposed to do in life, and want to do. I am just not able to fill all the roles that I have to, and want to, to my own satisfaction at the moment. I really wish I had more energy, more time, that there was another me that I could send out to do everything for a couple of weeks while the first me has a rest!
My PhD is the thing I feel worst about at the moment. You know it's bad when you struggle to concentrate so much that even the fact that your coaster matches your mug is a distraction! Yup, that's the reason for the picture above - taken last Sunday when I was supposed to be studying, trying to bludgeon my brain into concentrating for several hours.
Sigh.....
Well, I have just completed another 8000 word section of work. Who knows whether it will make it into the final PhD, but at least I feel I have achieved something, however flawed. As a reward, I've decided to stop being so hard on myself and give myself a break - literally and figuratively. So for Easter, I am going to let the PhD student role slide by for a couple of weeks and concentrate on the other roles - girlfriend, daughter, sister ... perhaps I can even squeeze in a little extra time just to be me too!
As you can see, I may not have had time or energy to blog over the last couple of weeks, but it hasn't stopped me from crafting! I have very much been enjoying working on this beauty in my down time. The yarn is an absolute dream to work with too. It is Blue Sky Alpacas Alpaca Silk, bought from Mrs Moon last month.
Isn't it luscious? Part of the fuzzy light in these pictures is, I think, just because the light is shining on the silk fibres and reflecting a sort of hazy glow. I wasn't using any kind of Instagram filter when I took these shots, I promise!
Hope you all have a lovely weekend, I'll be back again soon I hope!